speak up, young rebel...you're not alone

GO WILD

2009-12-11T09:33:00.000-08:00

BAM WHAM, SCHOOL'S OUT.
YEA MAN! TWO WEEKS OF FREEDOM SEXY!
Well, not really a lot but at least I can take this time to....

SLEEP IS A MUST.
JOGGING TO LOSE WEIGHT ALSO.

1) catch up with the mega ton of people
2) L4D(while i go stargazing HAHA>:] )
3) Birthdays and more birthdays!
4) learn how to sew(i want my own clothes)
5) READ (MYCHRONICLES OF NARNIA!)
6) Cycling+roller blading
7) CHRISTMAS!
8)WORK!(for Chi Chi's mum)

Okay suddenly two weeks seems very short.
But anyway, that's what i intend to accomplish.
While coping with a horrible sore throat that's coming up.

okay haven't been sleeping properly since two weeks ago thanks to module.
TILL NEXT TIME.
Am too brain dead to walk about anything else but say that 313 is kinda nice and their food republic is uber awesome.
TIME TO CONCUSS.

PS: Aww, two weeks where i don't get to play with my classmates(hope not). I'm gonna miss playing with our little fake indian aneehs, sing song to roy and say 'hey apple'/make fun of moles to joanne. Worse still, everyone is sick! Especially the little tiger:(

Party in your bedroom all night long

2009-12-06T07:54:00.000-08:00

Had a very very amusing weekend.

Saturday was completely spent on shooting with uriah's production team.
Most epic ever.
Me, a retarded burglar.
Veron, a pair of twins!
And yea, halfway through shooting the police actually came!
Cause we were just too convincing and the neighbours actually dialed 999.
The police arrived with a uber hilarious face.

Police:so uh..what are you guys doing?
Uriah:uhhh..filming?
Police:ohh...cause apparently someone called and said someone was attempting to break in..
Us:*roars in laughter.

So yea, no idea how the person can miss the fact that there were mega spotlights used and ton of people surrounding the one burglar.
Oh well, at least we know Gary's neighbourhood has a ton of watchful eyes and they are all safe.
Kudos to the police, we'd probably ruined the most exciting point in his career.
And i thought this kind of stuff only happens on TV.
Oh well at least the police were effective.

And so the shooting continued well late into the night.
The whole film ended with Veron beating me up real good with a freaking toilet brush.
-_-
And food at Pasir ris always seems good.
THE MEE GORENG.
Ohh emm geee-generous and really really awesome.

Hokai-gotta get me butt moving on with work. It's freaking twelve and I haven't even started my com yet.
And I've caught a freaking cold! D:
Sneezing all over the place, my throat's feeling sandy too.

PS:GAY DAY IS FINALLY ACOMING! :D
Fasterr! Chope me during the holidays before it's too late! Muahaha

Lovely convo.

2009-12-02T08:57:00.000-08:00

Teh peng lin says:
i think god is really funny
even when i'm not doing well and taking a break and all, he still wants me to know that he's there
you know, he dropped this vision into me today while going to school
it shows a valley with grass plains on both side
and many of the people are running, on this road towards sunset, they are laughing, holding hands with jesus,
but i'm sitting at the roadside and folding my arms, throwing a tantrum and ignoring everyone.
but guess where's my jesus?
he's sitting back to back to me, waiting for my anger to subside and he's not angry or impatient, just smiling : )
God is really cute in his own ways

pEyChyI.Evelyn says:
yeah agree!
God is Love and he shows it
i guess God wanna tell you that He'll be waiting for You always
until the day you decide to look at him face to face not back to back anymore

PS: Thanks for loving someone so unlovable like me, thanks for understanding,patient and all Big guy:)

ODDLY RANDOM

2009-11-21T08:54:00.000-08:00

Okay, this is freaking random yet funny at the same time.

Right.
It's been quite a time since i've blogged here.
School's been mad, insufficient sleep as usual.
Designers shall always be related to pandas.
Got a new haircut finally!
But i still can't decide whether it's nice or it sucks.
:l
And i'm freaking pissed at the moment.
Don't ask why.

SAY OOOMMMM PENGS. CHILL.

Preached.

2009-09-29T09:01:00.000-07:00

Hitting the showers,
not expecting anything,
God spoke.

"puzzle pieces"

Despite the devastation,
all the darkness,
lost and all alone,
falling through those cracks.
He's with me through and through.
His people as well.
God has been really graceful to me.
Loves.

2009-09-28T09:18:00.001-07:00

Where Coconuts thrive.

2009-09-18T09:26:00.000-07:00

Muahahaa.
Esther Leow, be prepared to let the world
know what goes on in your head all day.

Esther says:
why does the word umbrella start with a U
why is it that ostrich eggs are so big
why is the zoo called a zoo and not zooboo
i think poodles were once bred with alot of hair
then one fine day a strong wind blew and so all their fur became curly
do poodles have curly fur in the first place?
yes right

HAHAHA. I MEAN, WHO THINKS OF THAT? And FYI, she all along thought roosters were another species, not from the chicken family.

When life gives you lemons.

2009-09-18T06:55:00.000-07:00

Oh yes.
Finally a day to myself.

Looking at my loot of cup noodles is just depressing,
at least i dont have to touch them for anther month!

Musing of the day: If everyone turned into ugly bear zombies, where do i escape to?

FREEDOM !

2009-09-17T08:48:00.000-07:00

YEA MANN! :D
GLORIOUS SMELL OF FREEDOM.
You can never get enough of it.

Decided that I'll post about my leadership camp here instead of LJ.
Man, camp was awesome.
Despite not being fully prepared.
Despite not being well,
I received much from the camp!
More than i bargained for!
Had a really great time speaking to the leaders
and observing them!

God is really good.
He showed me what takes to be a real leader.
That is, looking beyond our own limitations.
Mistakes are misunderstood opportunities.
Leaders are not determined by how many talents we have,
but our desire to serve!

Camp was really good.
God answered me, called me, gave me directions.
Dream for the stars at Hendersons wave.
Dare to dream big,
because our God is big!
This reminds me of what He calls us to.

Sometimes leadership is a one-man show.
Would you continue to look towards
the big picture and march on,
even at times you don't know where
He's leading you?

And here's another thing.
Compassion goes with wisdom.
Learnt it through the 5 am prank!
Jess pretended to be missing and
my evil FA was acting as if everything was real.
oh mann.
It's not that i'm gullible, just that I always give my full trust to others:D

At the same time, I had a fun time speaking in Charlie the unicorn language.
I never knew Jen could be that crazy about the cartoon too!
i love irritating Ritchie the most because he HATES it.
HAHAHAHA.
And for that my voice's still not well.
Along with all the junk that i've been wolfing down*aww.

http://thisiswhyyourefat.com
I'm dead hungry because i skipped dinner
and stupid me decided to go to this awesome site?
I feel like cooking and eating.
But i think i'll curb it by going to bed.
CIAO! :D

That does it.

2009-08-27T07:56:00.000-07:00

Blogger blogger.
I'll be on holiday.

Over at
http://superpengs.livejournal.com/

Bite my toe.

Glum*

2009-08-25T10:36:00.001-07:00

Typo.
Not my thing!
Haw haw.
My first time using tracing paper.
FAIL.

One module for this block.
Yet it seems more stressful compared to two.
Slumps over dead*
Okay, this is a random post while doing craft.
My eyeballs are popping out from staring at the minute strokes.
And i'm hungry:l
Heck, I feel like some difficult child tonight.
Geez.

Glum*

2009-08-25T10:36:00.000-07:00

Ms 81th

2009-08-21T09:22:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 7th MONTH!
Piao Piaos on the loose!
I wonder if they scour the net and saw this.
heeheehee.

Had an uber awesome Birthday celebration with IMD monkeys earlier at Marina square!
Pizza hut's still the best after all:)
A song to embarrass Roy to the max >:}
After which, we had quite an awesome time making her do stupid stunts and running around the mall.
Great company to be with:)

Ahh. Curfew go far far away! :/
I want to watch 'where got ghost!'

GAY DAY!

2009-08-19T23:10:00.000-07:00

MOOO.

Blogger's uber sick :(
Can't upload photos
END OF BLOCK!
Oh-emm-gee.
Two modules which i really looked forward to turned out to be one of my worst nightmares.
haha.
But I'm really proud of my classmates,
helping one another and comforting each other.

Orphan show with IMD
Man, the only thing that comforted me was how Edward reacted.
And the thing that DID NOT comfort me was my dream:(
Veronica murderer, edward dying horribly and Roy fainting.
Hides behind a flower pot from Veron*
HAHAHHA.
Maybe i should have a blog just for my weird dreams.

KTV-ed with an awesome bunch of monkeys yesterday.
Small room, big voice, mega actions.
All the endless yowling.
:)

Huhuhu.
How i wish i can have another me on Saturday.

In the meantime, i'll go jump/hop/swim/sing/run/fly/shout/scream/slack/roar/somersault.
AND SLEEP TILL I DROP BEFORE IT STARTS ALL OVER AGAIN.
Moo!
Love you!

popped my cherry

2009-08-14T09:07:00.000-07:00

boo!
I TOLD YOU ELMO KNOWS WHERE YOU LIVE!

With photoshop gone, its photography to chiong!
But i heart photography so no worries.

Awesome friday with gossip homies.
Freaking awesome.
Brought me to Haji in the evening
AWESOME!
Wished i could have stopped and taken more photos though.
I really really love hanging out with them and sprouting all the endless nonsense,
stupid imaginations and the ever abundant ponders of the universe.
Wish we had more time today :l

P.S: My lung feels infected. COUGH COUGH! Hahahahaha!

CMI

2009-08-11T18:44:00.000-07:00

3 weeks worth of homework gone down the drain just like that D:
Oh God, it's the very last thing needed.
I know I've poor memory but its really gone now.
Oh damn.
I don't just need a ruffle on the head, a hug or whatever.
I need Simon to say its okay
And lemme ace this module.
Hopefully.
Damn :(

Random post

2009-08-10T08:58:00.000-07:00

HAHHA. Farah. You have proof to head down to her JC and kill her.

Bucket list.

2009-08-07T07:20:00.000-07:00

Few things i wanna do before i die.
Kinda random.
I think I'm a little loony from lack of sleep.

Bungee jump!
Sky dive!
Learn extreme tricking!
And how to lie successfully -_-
Dance with my Fav people in a supermarket!
Ride an angry bull?
Gay best friend!
Have balloons tied to my house like the movie 'UP'
slumber parrteh!
Break some stupid social etiquette!
Start a Band.
Build a Brand.
Leave a legacy behind.

Heck, so many to list.
mmm, i think i wanna try Afro hair too.
Hahaha.

Broken dream.

2009-08-04T09:09:00.001-07:00

Meet Nat and Naomi:)
They are one of those rare lucky kids who fall into my cute list.

I had quite an interesting dream last night:) Dreamt of Tp transfers. Well, we were sorta contaminated by chemicals*not PPG
All of us had super powers and i could fly.
And kept inside this factory along with other captives
run by some typical evil short fat baldy in a white suit.
At one point i was nearly killed because i was a active sound rebel.
But I pretended to be on the boss's side and which i quickly became the apple of his eye.
BUT!
They decided to hang Chester for God-knows-what reason.
*He was in some horrible brown suit at that time.
So i ran and ran, from the roof to ground level outside,
crawled up this patch of grass which seemed to grow on some soft yellow cushions.
Ran up to this parapet , where I could see everyone surrounding
the old wooden platform which Chester stands awaiting to be hang..
And i stretched out my wings and jumped......

And my mum's voice woke me up.
EEEYERRRR! i so nearly became the hero!

*Mental note to self: If you can't dream till the end, at the very least try imagining. HAHA.

Cullen/cutlet family.

2009-07-29T09:53:00.001-07:00

Way too cute.
Way too random.

Uber fun.

2009-07-29T02:23:00.000-07:00

Start of a new block.
Super awesome.
Photography and Graphic designing.
Man, i so totally want this block to go on forever.
These few weeks had been really busy for me.
Speaking of which..
FAMILY DAY!

Well,despite it turning out not the way i wanted it to be,
i still wanna thank God:)
For the game masters, for the people themselves.
And whoa,I really got tons to learn.
Hands down to Mark,the evil genius.

Mum actually surprised me today.
She actually journeyed down to Arab street after work to get two scarfs for me!
well, i was merely passing a statement the other day about how i can't seem to get the scarf that i really want.
*grins
I guess that's how my family says 'I love you'
We just ain't cut out for that mushy stuff.
:) I'm gonna wear it to school to show her how much i appreciate it.

And while on Msn, my mum and bro thought I was attached to some guy who had Teh as his surname.
Simply because my nickname was Teh peng lin
haha.

2009-07-19T09:49:00.000-07:00

Oopsie.
All the girls can say ciao to Adam Lambert.
What's with the world?

Remind me, once again,
was earth spinning from left to right
or up to down?
*if you are smart you'd get what i'm trying to say.

Sigh.

2009-07-15T06:51:00.000-07:00

I feel so...never mind

Transformer transform!

2009-07-12T07:46:00.000-07:00

WHEEE! Water bap!
The old has gone the new has come!
She was so elated about her funeral!
Peng lin officially died today and Edbriette is born!
No bread not bread!
Apparently only Esther Leow is the smart one who knows how to pronounce it.
Smart people like us yea? HEEHEEEHEE.

MEET HUM CHEE PENG!
My awesome new bag!
Why the name?
Cause its brown and a 'li rotund.
And tasty!And check out these 6 toys.
PeiQi, Denise and I spent 11 bugs on them,
slotting coins into the arcade machine.
Oh gee.
Even if they are worth less than 11,
it doesn't hurt to be cheated like this just once in a while.
As long as i'm happy*grins.

And God asked me a very interesting question the other day.
'I'm serving the Lord.
But am i serving with God?'

And the OMG girls go ohh-eem-jee

2009-07-07T19:35:00.000-07:00

Was happening to be flipping through my FB album for my assignment, when i found this.

Farah's face looks totally epic.
Either she looks as though she's drowning,
Or she's saw some mylie cyrus lookalike lizard.
HAHAHAHA.

Birds of a feather flock together.

2009-07-05T10:16:00.000-07:00

I don't know why but Esther and I never see eye to eye regarding bird issues.
Just a 'li while ago she was asking me if a rooster is a male chicken or a male hen.

So from this you can safely deduce that she is a dunce on birds.
A total bird brain.
heeheehee.

But it's moments like these when she just always unknowingly make my day.
:)

I'm sorry about avoiding you.

Training.

2009-07-03T20:24:00.000-07:00

Prepare lives.
Prepare Leadership.
Prepare Base camp.

A year of preparation.
Means a year of growth. (personal included)
Which God foretells there's gonna be obstacles.
Character cannot develop in peace and quiet.
Though the world may seem the easy way out,
I know its not the solution.

2 Cor 12:10
''That is why,for Christs's sake, i delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships,in persecutions, in difficulties. For when i am weak, then i am strong.''

Ps:Fighting insecurities.

if purple is gay, then what is barny?

2009-06-30T18:29:00.000-07:00

Isn't just so cool when you have facebook as homework?
Hoo yea babeh.
That's my homework:D

I bet those who have some lame paperwork would throw shoes at me.
oh crud.
i'm gonna be late for school AGAIN!
ciaaoooo !! :D:D

Reality check.

2009-06-29T07:14:00.000-07:00

HEY HEY! Check out my Baptism name!
EDBRIETTE! cool right !
HAHAH its originates from 3 names.
Willette-resolute protector
Edwina-valuable friend
Gabrielle-God is my strength.
Start calling me that okay!!
Baptizing on 12 July! Come seeeeeee!!!!
Oh my God, i'm freaking excited about this.

Joanne asked me a very interesting question today.
If you had to choose between an apple or an orange.
Which one would you take?

I said banana.
Hahaha!
Cause i wasn't paying attention in the first place.
Haha but i took orange in the end.
But here comes the interesting part.

Choosing Orange means that you would choose friendships over relationship. And vice versa.

So which one did you choose? :)

And i shall present to you the question that has been in my head for 2 days now.
Humans are said to be the most intelligent humans right?
By discovering and inventing so many things and all.
You know that Dinosaurs roamed the Earth for millions of years right?
So how come we humans are not gonna live for more than 5 thousand years without destroying mother earth?
Hmm..
So whats that telling us?

You decide.

Probling question.

2009-06-26T20:21:00.000-07:00

Oxygen has been proven to exist right?
With the aid of a thing called fire.

Sounds can be heard yes?
With the aid of our ears.

Heat and coldness exists right?
you can feel it.

You know you have a brain right?
Even if you dont see it.

So why can't people believe that God exist?
Even when it is proven by fellow humans?
In which we are supposed to relate and understand better compared to other stuff?
Life transformation occurs before their very eyes.
Hmm.
Are we not being Christ-like enough?
I think so.
But when's enough enough to prove it?
I dunno.
But I'm just gonna keep at it.
:)

Oh oh.
Here's another..
Why are there people out there who would, in the past, badmouth MJ. But when he passed on, mourn and act all sorrowful like they were his fans. Why?

And one more..
Walking past a chicken rice stall the other day, Candace popped this question..How many chickens do you reckon died in a single day alone? Hmm, and now i can't stop thinking about it :l

Birth of a monster

2009-06-24T09:03:00.001-07:00

Well.

Its Estee Er's birthday!
The greedy monster!

Hahaha. First and foremost...
Happy birthday!
Another year older finally!
start behaving more matured please!
neheheheheh.

Alrighty. This dates really dinosaur ages ago....
Once upon a time where were two girls named Estee and superpengs.
One was hot,
the other not. :D:D
Superpengs and estee loved playing under, in, and on the sun.
Scaring Estee from behind the doors was fun.
Eating secretly in class were their favourite hobby.
Making a fool out of each other were their profession.
Estee actually once farted loudly when they were playing!

Once, Estee bit superpengs(actually on many accounts)
The wound actually swelled!
And thats how superpengs learnt that she is as allergic to estee
as much as she is allegic to mangoes.
But all in all, superpengs forgave her and loves her still.

There were times when they took turns to hold,
that umbrella of friendship for each other.
A hug, some tissues and lots of letters.
None of this superpengs forgot.
The gayest times, back to 6.
She adored those days.
The tale of two idiots who can't read chinese.

In a nutshell, she loves and misses the other:)

SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY MORON!
you better be grateful.
Cause I don't usually say such mushy thingies.
Ps: moron is a term of affection in my vocab:)

2009-06-23T07:28:00.000-07:00

hey ho the merry oh.
I'm officially sick.
I'm green in the face.
Till then.

Through the thick times, with farah liyana.

2009-06-18T19:42:00.000-07:00

In the mist of waiting for the cracked student portal to open,
i decided to blog about this entire incident.
You see,
Temasek poly has quite a number of students.
And Cds is based on first come first serve basis.
Portal for registration opens at 10.

I especially pooped super fast so that i won't miss 10 am.
Guess what?
So did everyone.
Nearly an hour later,
I'm still here waiting for it to load.
And it's getting on everyone's nerves already.
It's quite hilarious considering the fact that by 11am,
99% of the TP students must be really pissed.

heh heh!

*An encounter with one who sold her soul to the angry devil in the morning
MSN!

peng pong pang says:
okay farah. Let's just head down to school and deliver our choices

Liya R. says:
i have that one
HAHA
ya man. i bet some kiasu aunties are calling the school already
my page loading totally stalled.

peng pong pang says:
HAHAHA omg
i fear that my browser will time out after too long a period

Liya R. says:
yeah most will
oh hell.
someone has to die.

peng pong pang says:
HAHAHAH !
bitchy bitchy system

Liya R. says:
haha. ya douche. different school should have their own day to sign in!
holly mother. there's like 10 000 year ones at least. i think from business theres 6000 alr.

peng pong pang says:
nods!
Oh yea

Liya R. says:
haha. not helping my life

peng pong pang says:
knowing that business students are the most kiasu ones
mannn
(shes from business btw!)
Liya R. says:
HAHAHA. HELLO

peng pong pang says:
haw haw !
cause its a known fact that business kids are real competitive

Liya R. says:
OMGFG
my browse timed out al.r.

peng pong pang says:
OH FUG

Liya R. says:
wait you logged in at what time?

peng pong pang says:
1000 sharp
Liya R. says:
oh!
my friend's friend logged in at 8AM
talk about kiasu

peng pong pang says:
HAHAHAH !
what the !

Liya R. says:
slap his balls

peng pong pang says:
HAHAHA !
did he get in?
Liya R. says:
probably. 8am omfg
haha
if i knew that i'd come in at 6am
HAHA BEAT THAT BITCH
LOL
peng pong pang says:
HAHAHA !
i'll log in at 2 am !
Liya R. says:
i tried logging in yest night yknow, to see how many choices i should pick. it can't even log in
peng pong pang says:
omg are you like serious?
Liya R. says:
ya it couldnt sign me in
for some reason
peng pong pang says:
the system hates you!
Liya R. says:
exactly.
fml

Hilarious i tell you.

Eyyer.

2009-06-18T08:27:00.000-07:00

Blueak.

I feel like purging.
Stuffed my face with too much snacks.
The durian made everything worse.
My tum tum feels like a washing Mac.
Defeats the purpose of yesterday's jog:(
Awww.

I seriously think I've contracted Esther.L's curse.
I suck at Monopoly now!!
I keep landing in Jail!!!
And i'm always broke even when i own the richest side of the board.
Glory to glory!
Hahahaha!

Oh oh! there's so much to do during the holidays!
Catching up with monkeys especially! :}
Little monster is turning 17 soon!
Tell you a secret, she once farted loudly when we were playing
*grins

P.S: why you like that one?

GAY DAY!

2009-06-12T06:42:00.000-07:00

see this.

WHOOOOTS!!!

JUMPS UP AND DOWN*

FREEEDOM AT LAST!
TWO PRECIOUS WEEKSSSS OHHH !!!
I CAN SLEEEP AT LASTTT!
I shall announce after submission days as Gay day always.
I couldn't stop smiling to myself today.
Even when i'm typing this.
I even believed that the weather was sorta sweet!
Didn't even grumble when i had to go down to school early because of shi peng!
Was sorta nice to my maid today!!! Helped her to draw kay!
HAHAHA. That was how happy i was!

hahaha. I was kinda reflecting upon myself today.
I was remembering how much i grew in east in the last few months in youth.
I remembered how convicted i was.
How I had that 'ai zai' attitude.
How much i went out for God despite having many things in hand, being tired and all.
How i was told that i actually impacted quite a number of people before i left.

So what's wrong with me now?
Why do i choose to be stagnant when i know that i can?
Why do i choose to follow my emotions when i know that i shouldn't?
It's easy to love god.
But what about with ALL your heart? Meaning to serve above all else, temptations, desire whatever.
There ARE times where i do want to backslide ya know :(
I've been feeling rather dry recently, when i'm up to my eyes with projects.
But he was constantly there to remind me, to renew me and to assure me.
But i looked away.
Love shouldn't just be an idea. But an action.
And i realized that all along I wasn't being a good shepherd.
I didn't make time for her all the time.
What injustice i am doing to my first sheep whom i have been praying for for so long!
I have an issue with availability, and i gotta fix it.
I'm sorry mutton! I have been so selfish! :(

Dear God! I'm gonna obey when i dont understand it,
believe when i dont see it,
Give when i don't have it,
persist when i don't feel like it,
thank you before i receive it
and trust you when i don't get it.

I'm gonna minister in faith big time.
God, I wanna be AI ZAI AGAIN! :3

FREEEEDOOMMM!!! in a few hours.

2009-06-11T08:31:00.000-07:00

OMG.
It's always the last friday of every four weeks that i'm looking forward to.
FREEEEEEE!!!! FREEEEEE!!!! FREEEEEE!!!!!!
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG !!!
(sorry God, i know you are busy and it's annoying when i keep calling...but i wanna rejoice! )
Oh man. Like Seriously.
I'm always gonna mark this day as my HAPPIEST day of every four weeks.

Sheesh. I got a scare in the morning when i looked closely into the mirror.
I got eyebags that can beat a panda's. Scare away Ju-on.
SO VOLUMINOUS! Contained with protests from my eyes.
I wonder how my eyeballs actually managed to not slip off.

To make matters worse. Lack of sleep and the horrendous weather didnt nothing but aggravate my temper. In addition to some pathetic humans trying to get my attention. So i naturally was very cold in replying text messages or even speaking to some people. Or even ignored by me. Sorry if you happened to experience it! Superpengs ain't very happy when she doesn't get to have time for sleep or other stuff and has to spend it on pencils and paper instead.

OH WELL! ONE MORE THING I REALLY NEED TO DO DURING THIS HOLIDAY?

Is to complete my chronicles of Narnia! It's been lying there for a long time! Oh man.

Paint me blue

2009-06-08T09:14:00.000-07:00

The coolest thing that happened today.
Was that he told me that he felt my sadness as I stood there.
Finally.

Thank you, my friend.

So you think you know me?

2009-06-07T09:42:00.000-07:00

hohoho!

SAVED! RENEWED REFRESHED!
Omg. like seriously. This entire week was really crap and hell for me.
Terrible calls, disheartening feedbacks, tumbling mountain of assignments.
To top it all off, friday's incident.

Man. Did i fly off the handle big time.
I started having suicidal thoughts for a moment.
I thought no one cared.
Like totally.

But oh crappy me! How wrong i was!
Honestly, Saturday was the day that really brought me back to my senses.
GOD was literally speaking to me! *or pastor jasmine stalks my blog*Heeheehee
What the heck have I been doing?
Wallowing in self-pity? In negative thoughts?
My God, looking back, i realised that practically everyone were worried.
I really really wanna thank Esther.L, Fanny, Edward and Dawn the most:)
Esther.L and Fanny for rescuing me that night and staying with me throughout!
Edward for being there when it very happened! Thanks for your protection!
And DAWN! For really being there for me to rant to. Thanks for your ears, i know they are spoilt from my bubblerings :)

My class too! haha, honestly they brighten up every single shingles in me, even silly Shi Peng *grins
And my caregroup! haahahah the lovely bunch of monkeys offered to send me home, talk to my parents etc.
haahaha. My goodness. There's so much that i can thank for and yet i chose to imerse myself in my own problems.
I nearly drowned.

Hahaha.
Retarded Evening today. I meant to do some more work, but retarded esther showed me a retarded video! Charlie the unicorn! nahahaha. Though it was uber retarded, it really made me happier. I like Esther Leow best, cause she does stupid things and doesnt mind doing them:D

Whoa okay it's 1.41am. I have school at 9am. God. My brother commented that i have eye-bags that can beat Ju-on.

BEFORE I FORGET, Just wanna say...

I HEART MY MUTTON THE MAGGIE MEE VERY VERY MUCH! :D:D
God's with ya!
:D:D

Lost.

2009-06-04T06:17:00.000-07:00

Sighs.

I just wish i could sit somewhere with a good friend and just forget about everything else.
Forget the assignments for a bit, ruffle my hair and gaze at the stars at night.

I'm kinda tired of going to school wearing something on my face which i'm forced to.
plastic smiles, dry laughter and the pathetic pretense.
Only to reach home and repeat the whole cycle once again.

Aye.
Maybe it's just the things that's been happening recently that's pulling my spirits down.
I just wanna drop my pencil and hang back for a bit.
I really really hate my current module,drawing essentials.
In the mist of all these, I sprained my ankle this morning while jogging.
I really don't know what to do.

Maybe i really do need a break.
And thank God it's coming soon.
And I know that you won't give me more than i cannot bear.

SUPERPENGS (KK) PROMISES TO MAKE A BIG LOUD COMEBACK WHEN THE HOLIDAYS ARE OVEER!

another dark valley

2009-06-01T10:55:00.000-07:00

Ugh.

Why does everything seem to be going downhill?

:((

I need love.

C-strikes.

2009-05-26T08:55:00.000-07:00

Grade Cs after Cs after Cs.
Ah.
Have I really made the right choice after all?
Ahh.
I can't do any artsy fartsy stuff for nuts.
Efforts are not taken into account.

:((((((

How?
Drive faster God.

I think i'm going to cry soon.

THANK YOU IVY. YOU ROCK!
you really encouraged me!
yay !

I love Lyechees:)

2009-05-18T09:26:00.000-07:00

Some ulu pandan pic.

CANNNDAACCEEEE LYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
Adds oill for your upcoming exams you moron!
Don't tire yourself out!
Swine flu's over at Malaysia already!
3000 bucks says Exams are over in a breeze:)
And when it's over,
I'll buy lychees for you(your relatives)
Maybe you'll recognize them, maybe you don't.
But all in all,You know I love you best:)

2009-05-14T09:01:00.000-07:00

WHEEEE !
END OF BLOCK !
OFFICIALLY!
HAPPY!

BYE BINA! BYE CHEE KIONG!

AND NOW! LALALAND!! HERE I COMMMEEEEE!!!!!!!!
:D:D:D:D:D

Paint me blue

2009-05-08T21:10:00.000-07:00

Shepherdings.

My first shepherding with my first official sheep: SAM!
hohoho.
Building relationships. Knowing her better.
Got to know her more!!

And then! shepherding! with my new shepherd Geck ting!
Bwahahaha, she's freaking hilarious.
We had a chicken and some sushi :D

HAHAHAHHA. Chicky bodehh!

Shepherding was really awesome!
Though there were no teachings, she really taught me alot of things!
Honestly, She's like my talking mirror.
She makes me reflect and look intently into myself.
She doesn't provide solutions but sets my mind to work.

Thank you!

Tags: Jacq: LOL !thanks! Yea! No point pouting our faces yea? Let's give it our toothy grin and show how we can rejoice in such times with God ! *becomes botak pengs, no more botak Jones

FREEEEDOMMM FRRIIIIDAAYYYY!!

My Tsunami.

2009-05-06T08:58:00.000-07:00

Crash of the final projects.
Oh God.
This is gonna be worse than the last.
BUT!
I'm gonna take the ride.

I apologize for the crankiness that's to come.
I may bite :x
Cause i won't be having enough sleep till 12th May is over :)
Sorry for the inconvenience caused.

The Only thing thats keeping me going is that class outing we're gonna treat ourselves with after our final projects. Woots.

I rock, you PEBBLE.

2009-05-02T08:34:00.000-07:00

Lemme tell you about my day today.
I started my day waking up on the wrong side of bed today.
I woke up late, delayed group meeting [guilty here]
I slept at 2 going on 3 and woke at 7.30am
Didn't even bother to see what i wore.
Did a skit, i completely have no face after that.
Acted as a mother, sheena should be happy that i wasn't her real mother.

Slogged three quats of my brains out at the library till 5. *well we talked alot as well.
I still have 3 essays, complete my 3d portfolio for monday.
curses.
And well, on my way to cuppage i did some reflection. *late!
Haha.
Honestly, i was feeling very inferior in school these days.
I'm the lousiest at drawing in my class.
I even had trouble drawing perspectives, which everyone said was super easy.
My lecturer seems to leer at my crappy drawings every lesson, my drawings, my sculptures :(
I was thinking whether i made the right choice to go IMD after all.
What's passion without talent?

The moment i entered cuppage, i met Jacq and her gang.
Fiona's squeal and spastic happy face woke me up. heeheehee, but it's pleasing to hear that at least someone's happy to see me.
Uber surprised.
but it didn't take away the heaviness of my heart and that really tired papaya face.
I wanted to cry then.
Didn't really take in what Jacq was trying to reassure me about. [haha sorry]
Only opened my mouth and spew all my complaints out.

BUT !
Everything changed during Service.
Papaya-ed face all the way till sermon started.
I didn't even want to talk to anyone in the first place.
Thank God.
It felt as though God prepared this service just for me.
Everything was what i needed.
What i wanted.
What i lacked.
It's not about who i am, but who my God is.
I'm not gonna look at what i dont have.
What i can't do.
I'm not gonna listen to the world who say i can't.
I'm gonna tell them that i can.
Because i have a God.
That defeats all of them.
I'm not gonna look at what i don't have, but be grateful for what i have.
:)

Touch ball, here i come:)

2009-04-30T09:24:00.001-07:00

oh god. End of week 2.
I'm freaking brain fried.
I finally left the studios at 9 going on 10.
Dragged my sorry carcass home.
oh God.
Someone attached stones to my eyelids.
My eye bags are gonna be a foot long soon.

I have TONs of essays.
Sketches to complete.
*I still have to freaking travel to boat quay to draw this saturday.
oh man oh man oh man.
Thank God for the long weekend.

LABOUR DAYYY!
I thought it was may day man-.-
YAY! First official mutton:SAM!
WOOTS WOOOTS.
Hahahha.
I never stop finding just how cool God is.
He threw me a brilliant idea.
I'm gonna own these people.
GRINS*

THANK GOD FOR JACQ :)
These few days, she's been really helping me out ALOT.
Thank you thank you!
Words really cant express my thanks.
Thank you for letting me to bug you :)
But pats on my back for allowing myself to be laughed at by you. hahahha.

*screams

2009-04-23T09:11:00.000-07:00

Class started 3 days ago.
I have currently...3/4 projects in hand.
Frank Stella isn't giving me a good time.
Research on Topshop/man.
Freaking tiring.
It feels like a month has gone already.
:/
I wanna go back to high school.
And have relive the sec 2 Carefree life!
woots.
The outings.
The binging.
The pranks.
The SLACKINGS.

Oh anyway.
Lunch meet up with Jacq today!
Happy!
Nice talk.
And she has a good time making fun of me :/
But she camed in time!
Saved me from some stuffs.
Learned tons of stuff.
Like how to borrow books! (well hey, i'm a freshie after all!)
I look like some freaking nerd infested tard.
The length of the receipt was amazing.
And i haven't even reached my loan limit.
Uber amazing yawl.

Cool class anyway.
Wide variety of peeps.
I like.
Welcome!
To the building of hybrids!
TP design:)

PS: I WANT TO WATCH METAL DETROIT CITY. Anyone interested?!

2009-04-18T10:44:00.000-07:00

ROCKSTAR IS BACKKKKKK!
FROM DESIGNERS CAMP!
WOOTS!
But she has rashes all over her body..
Body ache.
Gross.

My sub empire was awesome.
More so with the GLs.
Met a funny kid during camp.
Awesome:D
But of course.
Stupid people always clique well together.
Muaha.

Night walk was uber fun.
Now i regret taking that lightstick for safety.
I couldnt help but laugh at the people who dressed as ghosts.
'Cause i kept reminding myself that they were programmers.
And one of the 'ghosts' laughed herself, while trying to chase us out.
Grins*
REGATTA!
AWESOME.
I was one of them rowers for design!
HAPPY*
And we got second!
I'm a happy child!

Honestly, i forgot what exactly happened during the camp after sleep :l
SCHOOL STARTS ! WOOT WOOTS!

Where Your Blood was shed for me

2009-04-12T08:17:00.000-07:00

EASTER.

You tore the veil
You made a way

I teared at these two simple sentences while worshiping today.
I teared at the memory when God was with me when I was at my weakest.
Thanks for the assurance when the whole world walked out of the room.
Thanks for holding the sky when it fell.
Thanks for loving someone so unloving like me.

That aside.

I think the true story about was really, awesome.
It really touched me.
Because it told me such things can really happen.
Such things which only people would only say its impossible.
But not God.
Before that i was always that cynical.
I thought it only happens in tv serials.

I always had a burden for people who came from single-parented family.
It makes me so disappointed in adults at times.
How selfish of them, how self centered!
Just because you think you dont love each other anymore,
you part.
Just because you think the feeling has left you,
you part.
And then, the child has to go through the pain.
A pain that he/she never ever deserves.
The pain of not having a complete family.
The pain of watching other kids when released from school running to both parents.
The pain of having to grow up like this, and the kid has not done anything at all.
A hole that you leave behind in my heart.
What's even worse.
Divorce nowadays are so common.
Like it's nothing.
The vows made, no longer holds its meaning but an impetuous decision.
The rings worn,are no longer genuine.
Even the church bells, loses its enthusiasm.

I dont really like to talk about my family but this i wanna share.
A few times my parents nearly went through divorce too.
The worst was when i was really young.
I remembered clearly my brother because of my parents very nearly got run over by a car.
They used to glare at one another with such terrifying eyes.
I didn't understand then.
And the other significant one was a few years back.
My dad actually asked me who i would choose to live with.
At that time i was really tired of the cold war, the consistent heated arguments. The piercing glares. Slamming of doors.
Till a point where I hated them for it.
So I said no one, i would want to live by myself.
He never forgot what i said.
Maybe thats why he hates me so much :(
Maybe that's why i never wanted to get married.
Why I fear relationships. Children.
Phobia runs to a point where i dont even seem to have a crush on a guy.(maybe comment he's handsome or something)
Because mainly i Fear commitments.
I dont want to end up disappointing anyone.
i'm happy with a dog that i can live with.

Sometimes it's hard to live.
It's hard to find a daily motivation to get by.
When I seem it that its kinda hard to even love myself.
But in the end.
No matter what, i know i'll pull through.
Cause i know someone's holding my hand
:)

2009-04-10T09:32:00.000-07:00

NIGHT BIKING.

With my C.g! (comprises of people who cant tell great jokes,me being exceptional)
Hilarious. Fun.

From East coast to Singapore flyer to Geylang to changi !
DURIANS! DIM SUM! AND KFC?
Awesome.
It gave me the runs the next day:/
But! Great sense of achievement gained.
We rode through great places!
Nicolle highway! Esplanade!

FLYER! YELLOW YELLOW DURIANS! Bet most of you'd be jealous ! HEEHEE. While Chester looks like some innocent small monkey eating the seed, Nigel looks like some scary thing(king kong?) eating his! Wilfred reminds me of a old ah pek eating his piece of durian. heehee

We seriously cycled everywhere.
Up down left right inside out!
So thank God for cheryl for getting me the water pillow the other time.
Butt, you better thank her as well. (heehee)

My Best pic of the day:
Hokai fine, its not that nice cause its taken by my hp cam.

But I realised some stuffs along the way.

Which are private.

Hoho.

P.S: i dont understand how this peng peng controversy can be so....good to comment about?
Just flush it down to loo Lye.

Indie music? I like:)

2009-04-07T10:54:00.000-07:00

I didn't really appreciate my own bulletin. ( I find the fatty egg super duper hilarious)
It wasnt the style that i really want
But not knowing how to use the programme's not gonna be an excuse.
I'm gonna practice more more more!

Oh, my main reason for blogging today?
I just wanna say that candace's new toy is really UGLY.
EW.
*this ripped off her blog
It looks as though it ran its face into the wall!
And it still got the cheek to be called peng peng.
Sheesh!
Candace deserves to be killed for this.
ROAR!

Uber fun.

2009-04-05T08:04:00.000-07:00

A completely FUN week for meh!
Sentosa with my moronic C.g!

(look at all the gong toot toot smiles!)

As much as they are moronic,
they are still very...funny.
I went tanning and now i'm darkeeehh!!
The colour that i want before i officially start school!
(I wonder if God actually rolled his eyes when i actually decided to sun tan. I mean, He already dipped me in the paint bucket long enough...)
I must move on to hair soon.
I'm still undecided with what hair colour i really want.
I wanted to highlight the side of my hair with strips of blue red and yellow
I wanted to highlight my hair with gold and red.
i wanted to dye the end sides of my hair green.
I wanted to dye my fringe super red.
I just want to dye my hair before school starts!

I Fetched moron from work on Wednesday,
which, this particular moron had tons of fun april-fooling me,
Laughed as though they were the ultimate april jokes of all times.
And she did something which shouldn't be blogged out in protection of my name.
All i can do?
Roll eyes and say :oh god...

SCHOOL"S STARTING!
i dont know how it's gonna be like.
Mehhhh.

resolve

2009-03-30T10:53:00.000-07:00

woohoo.
I decided to change the pic on top every first week of the month,featuring different groups of people.
So do watch out fer yer face!!!!
bwahahhaha.

*thats it, i'm throwing my towel in on you:)
Goodbye?

Nerd-fest

2009-03-29T20:08:00.000-07:00

I admit, we took weed and got high on earth hour.
Us losers tried mosh pitting in the room upstairs.
Hilarious outcome.
Lucky Liya Brought her hotshot vaio.
Plenty of fun with her built in cam.

Oh oh, here's some vids that someone took with my phone sometime ago.
Oh crap, i missed the vid competition deadline.
And these are all my accomplices*grins

25 things about me

2009-03-26T09:05:00.000-07:00

Haha. I'll take this from Facebook and put it here instead.
It's pretty random:)

1) I like people to ruffle my hair:)
2) I like to give people piggyback rides.
3) I'm not a touch person, but hugs are always welcomed, i dont mind giving to those to need them either.
4) Prefers communication via msn,to calls and finally sms.
[cause i find smses a hassle, the only times which i dont would be smsing to irritate people like candace lye.]
5) Jaywalking used to be one of my hobbies. I just LOVE the thrill of it.(sadistic much?)
6) I can be pretty lazy if i want to. [i can be hungry but not eat because i'm too lazy to chew]
7) I always dream of funny things but recently mine are pretty disappointing:/
8) I'm not a night person, I'm an early riser.
9) I like watching funny stuff, cartoons and, anime.
10) I dont sob watching dramas or movies. I laugh at others who do.
11 ) My memory's pretty poor:(
12) i always come up with quirky ideas and analogies.
13)I sing in the shower,dance when no one's looking and tries beatboxing in the lift alone.
14) i don't like shopping, it kills my feet and burns my pocket.
15) I like to spend time with people.
16) i don't like to beat around the bush, nor do i like people who do,because i tend to see motives quickly
17) I don't always tell people everything.
18) I tend to contradict myself at times, mainly because i get confused or that I can't bring across what i want to say well. But I'm not lying of course.
19) By nature, i'm a really really quiet person.
20) I really dislike it when people dont reply my smses.
21) My face/actions don't normally show how i'm actually feeling. I don't usually show my true emotions.
22)I don't really like it when people try to pry into my family life. Cause it's even more complicated than Pure maths and i find it intrusive:/
23)Thinking is not necessary a good thing for me.
24)My idea of quality time does not necessarily include talking. i already appreciate the presence.
25) I don't always ask people out or add people on msn etc, I will find myself bothersome to others. but if i do, especially to places like the airport or the beach with just two of us, there's either something wrong with me[not crazy] or that i'm just plain bored. But it doesn't mean i'll confide in you.

Through the storm

2009-03-25T06:13:00.000-07:00

Heck.
Seeing Him today was really heart wrenching.
I couldn't even believe it was him. I even passed by his unit without so much a glance.
He was the youngest in there.
I don't usually cry, but seeing him in a room,
lying there,with all the tubes, i couldn't help but tear.
This is the first time he didn't run to me shouting Peng peng.
This is the first time he hasn't 'irritated' people for so long.
This is the first time he's so quiet.
And I know he doesn't like to be alone.

Looking at him, all the memories came back.
All the memories.
I used to remember when we were in the same section.
The tall noobs, the irritating ones.
I remember when the band combined in the music room,
and since both of us couldn't play, we just sat behind there and ended up making funny remarks at the other people. We used to call the flute section Fruit section:) And somehow, it was he who only got scolded in the end.
I still remembered that there were occasions when people ask me why i hung out with him. I didn't know what to tell them then. But i enjoyed his presence as a friend.

Somehow, i really regret not keeping in contact with him after SYF. And just when i thought of going to see him and the band on tuesday morning, i received the news.
It's been more than a week since he's been in there.

Just wake up dude.
And when you do, I'm gonna make you our t-bone Starbucks shirt and take you to see chio-bu:)
Okay?

Isaiah 43:2
'when you pass through the waters,
i will be with you.'

Pitter patter.

2009-03-18T08:06:00.000-07:00

Busy week.
Preparation for camp, designing something uber big to me.
Woots.
Quite a bit of calls as well.
On the phone with Esther till 2 am! *whoa
Honestly we chatted about nothing, and it was our first time too,
considering everytime we talk would be something thats important.

And yes, i dont know if its just my friends,
but SOME people do seem to be kinda crazy over web cam nowadays.
Don't you agree?
HEEHEEHEE
Say hello to my gay friend.
The nissa.
Who claims to be the almighty.
Thank God she's not.
Or the world would have ended already.
hahahahha.
Hello gay faggot instead.

Dont mind her. She's pretty brainless for a bimbo. typical.
Hola!

She's in dire need of anger management

She grew a beard.

Growing up.

2009-03-11T09:50:00.000-07:00

Just a quick thing i wanna share before i head to lala land.

The coolest thing about C.G today was when Nel listened to our fears entering tertiary.
Instead of just simply assuring us, she confronted them and provided us with solutions with are just so quick, so direct and so... realistic.

This quoted from her:
' You can never force circumstances to change. And nothing will happen if you sit there and whine. And you won't move on if you sit there and compare the past with the present and sulk. You won't be able to appreciate the New then would you? So since the circumstance can't be changed, what can be changed?'

YOURSELF.

Honestly, i realised that i've been just doing that. And i was utterly astonished by her answers. I realised that it wasn't just my fear. But my reluctance to embrace the new environment. My heart attitude. So what if the rumours are true/false? Am I gonna nod my head and prove these dark rumours true? Am i gonna complain along and say 'ya youth is so much better. I WANT to stay there."?

Now seeing it from a new light, I realised that i've been denying this fact all the time. Only a hindrance to my own growth, only a sign that i'm not exactly flexible but stubborn and most of all, silly. Which suddenly reminded me of a really old book i own titled "who moved my cheese?" , the story in which two groups of creatures react differently to their cheese which finished over time, analogous to our life and how to we should react to some challenges.
*its a really good book, i dont mind lending if ya ask:)

Life transitions aren't exactly easy, but it's only temporary.
I grow up, but it doesnt mean I have to be grown up:)

Ps: This post is meaningful, but its kinda all over the place. Cause i'm brain fried. Good night:)

2009-03-10T02:40:00.000-07:00

I simply love the Grads.
Though yesterday's birthday surprise didn't go as planned,
it certainly tugged my heart strings.
Siewling and Candace having to rush down after work,
Angel having to sacrifice her sleep,
Dawn and Cheryl still tired after the cycling trip.
Poor Esther sick at home.

No it wasnt lousy and certainly you guys ain't losers.
But rather you guys were really awesome.
The card was great:)
So was the ice cream topped with creamer blown in my face.

NIGHT CYLING(070309)
Uber cool.
I've never enjoyed cycling so much
and the Fionas surprised me very much,
One being a daredevil riding all over the roads,
the other with really good stamina!

Look at siewling:she looks like a scared and lost little girl.
Awww*
I think esther teo looks the best in here:)

my reward for the trip?
Boddehhh acheee!

I'm really really dead tired.

The preppy kids , heroics with the bimbotics

2009-03-08T10:43:00.000-07:00

By far the coolest saturday of my life:)
peeps surprised me with early celebration.
And i really was surprised and super happy*grins
you guys so rock
Even though the rest didn't make it.

I look like i'm mentally challenged in here. (gah)

And i look super gay here.(oh god)

Choco war. Where everyone was 'injured'.

Woots, and the cake was the best ever.
Thanks guys, you rock :)

2009-03-02T08:35:00.000-08:00

March is so so so so gonna busy for me.

Last shepherding: 27 feb, Friday.
Yes, on that day we totally sidetracked from our initial agenda: cycling!
Oh god.
Instead of cycling for 6 hours to reach Changi ferry terminal,
We ended up playing at the arcade and then pigging out and Sakae Sushi till 6.
But we didn't really eat much,
cause half of the time we were just embarrassing ourselves in the restaurant.
Here's an example:

Waitress: yes, you would like to order?
Me: umm...'insert food name' please
Esther: frantically jabbing her finger at the pictures of the food, at the same time giving a spastic face*

SEE? . My shepherd is...AYE. *shakes head.

For the rest of the shepherding session: I do not wish to reveal. *let's think that i'm lazy.

BY the way, I swear Farah and I are total Losers.
We initially wanted to go for this audition fighting spiders.
But just the script alone set our teenage minds on the creative mode.
It was supposed to be a love confession scene.
But Farah figured she MIGHT laugh in some guy-with-eggs-on-teeth's face
Nerdfest gays and geeks included.
TO FARAH: YOU definitely got NO LING in YOU!

Alter Ego.

2009-02-20T08:14:00.002-08:00

Okay, so this blog skin is a tad boring.
But it's fun to play with
*grins
You need to tell me to relink, or i'll never remember.

Sentosa trip was awesome
My first time playing catching after so many years.
I'm still as fast as Flash
*grins

Water baptism is coming:)
Narrowed down a few names(okay,maybe its little too early to say)
You, who are reading this, are invited to help me think of one! *grins
But no Mariam please:/

Random fact: I love to fool around with HMTL.

2009-02-15T06:35:00.000-08:00

NEXT STOP, TERTIARY.

Let's see where it takes me:)

Gee, two more weeks left.
I wanna make it all worth while.
I wanna know as much East peeps as i can and spend time with them! :)
And then......
I have no idea what's gonna happen after that:/
Hmmm.'

BRYAN ROCKS :)

But anyway! This is one awesome dream that i dreamt about yesterday!
I dreamt that i could FLY !
Oh man and i was the only one!
GRINS*
But sadly, I didn't use my powers to save people.
BUT DELIVER FOOD.
*WHAT?
I worked for this old lady who had a tendency to take orders which are like cities away.
And i had to fly so much it was tiring,
to keep that arm in front of me holding the plastic bag while i flew

oh geez,
I love my Dreams :)

2009-02-11T06:34:00.000-08:00

Love.
What IS it actually?
The absence of hate?
Or merely the abundance of feelings for the other party?
Love.
Sometimes, we stop and ponder.
Did the other party after all, like you for who you are?
Or was it for aesthetics?
Love.
Do YOU think what you know it is?
Not in for any love that's just the usual bittersweet taste?
The usual conflicts?
The usual fall outs?

Then I challenge you! To join me this Saturday!
Dateless or not,
This hip hop event is open for all!
From the broken hearted to the cynic hearts.
I"LL SHOW YOU WHAT IS LOVE.

2009-02-10T07:20:00.000-08:00

MY SINFUL DINNER.
The culprit happened to be caught in the act.
See how big her mouth opens?
Muahahaha(insert candace's voice here)

hahahaha. Seriously, it was a lot of food.
But thank God for such a sweet shepherd.
She took me to eat carrot cake just because i wanted to yesterday.
:D

In case you haven't noticed. Sixteen year old's were never meant to worry about their own finances>:

2009-02-07T07:33:00.000-08:00

My favourite day of the week: SATURDAY!
Woots.

Again, i'm suffering from lack of sleep for this week.
My brain's starting to fizzle already.
God, I feel like booking a hotel room and sleeping in there the entire day with no distractions.
NO PHONE EITHER.

hahaha, it has really become of my desperate getaways.

CANDACE LYE.
I have no idea why but i felt very compelled to blog about her ever since service today.
God's telling me something....
HAHAHAHAHA.
hmmm.

Ah yes, CANDACE LYE.
Yes though there are times where she may unintentionally step on my toes,
embarrass me till i can practically rip off my face and hide on the other side of the universe,
disturb me till I wish i could murder her on the spot once and for all,
Flood my phone with ALL her photos,
......
.......
.........
...........
She's one of the very few people who I don't mind spending the whole entire day with.
In fact, she's someone i've really come to really enjoy company with.
Come to think of it, I can almost say we grew up together!
She's also someone whom I actually look up to.
Besides being crazy for God,
her selflessness to go every extra mile for her own people really touches my heart.
Her timely encouragements all these while have really spurred me on,
thrown in along side with her unfailing concern for others.
But even though she at times may make me mad,
the insults actually make me laugh and grin to myself later on.
But people in public normally misunderstand and
end up staying a little further away from me
Meh.

Honestly she's someone who I really have to thank for in this lifetime,
for she never gave up on me during my 'floating' days,
and she has really inspired me to not give up on humanity
though there are many times when i want to.

Dear candace, know you'd be reading this so let me tell ya something. This is not an affirmation post, but something that really comes from the bottom of my heart. But just know that this is all 100% authentic genuine! hahaha i apologise if i may hurt you at times with my words and actions but please know they were never intentional! Hahaha, it's been a super privilege serving together with you and hope you'll really know how much i really love you as a sister!

I love you mojojojo!
Muahahah.
(shit, when i type this out i think of your laughter)

FYI: i used the com just to blog about you.
Touched?
Good, then start tearing now.
heeeheehee:p

2009-02-02T08:15:00.000-08:00

In case you are wondering,
Its interactive media design in TP.
And yes, I'm in the same course as Dawn.
And YES, there's 50/50 chance that we'll be in the same class since the course intake is only 50.
In fact, the way I met her on Saturday already foreshadows the outcome.
muahahha.
I can almost announce the end of the world already.

Somehow, the prospect of not going high school leaves a hole in me.
The idea of mugging and cramming subject facts,
leave trail the nostalgic scents behind.
dawning upon the truth that i'm not going to wear a uniform again.
The reality of growing up just suddenly stuns me.
Yet again.
As tendrils of childhood memories fade into nothingness like wisps of smoke,
so does the comfort of our shelter from the world.
Plastic smiles and icicle hearts.
Welcome to city cold.

I never liked growing up you know.

2009-01-26T06:51:00.000-08:00

Photoshop!

Magic!
I like this pic alot.
But crap, i spelt heroes wrongly.

2009-01-25T04:29:00.000-08:00

GOD.
It's only new year's eveeeee...
And i'm already bored stiff.
There's nothing to do but
eat
eat
eat
eat
eat.

In fact, my parents brought enough food and beverages to feed like, 20 people!
The too-big a fridge is jam packed with food.
God, it's only the 5 if us every year.
Fine, plus the tortoise makes it 6
We're not going for war.

Steamboat's tomorrow.
I bet 10 million bucks it's gonna be a few hours long.
Last time it lasted 4 hours.
And there's always prawns.

Geez,at this rate anyone will balloon up!
But thank God, I'm going skating and swimming plus jogging. (i think)
EAT MORE BA KWA peeps!
Bwahahaha.
Then i shall be the only one who weighs 5 kilos lesser after cheena new year.
*insert evil grin

okay, so let's cut the crap already.
CLAM's meeting.
SUPER AWESOME.
SUPER PRIVILEGED!
SUPER GAY.
WHEEE. *spastic smile
I wish i could say more but all i can manage now is that ecstatic spastic grin.
I'm just feeling as cool as some funky retro geek with shades in the breezy summer.
Other than that i would like to complain about Meng's Osim dont-know-what-on-earth-she's-gibbering-about product!
*bites

P.S: i'm wearing Red Hawaii flowery pants now:B

2009-01-22T08:35:00.000-08:00

Our 'deeeaarrest' Dawn tay.

Ayeee.

My 'best' friend.
Applied for the same courses too.
Who knows?
We might end up in the same class even.
Until then, People will really know what is 'all hell breaks loose'
Screams in terror*
haha.

the burdened heart.
Biscuits and milk don't help anymore.

2009-01-21T08:06:00.000-08:00

ATTENTION!
PUBLICITY STUNT WILL BE CARRIED OUT ON 14 FEB!
DONT MISS IT!
DIE DIE MUST COME.
PENGS WILL BE SEXY FOR A DAY.
grins*

Being difficult today.
My first time.
Basically i was really picky and commenting about almost every single thing today.
From deciding where to meet to even deciding what drink to have.
God, and i think i really CAN get VERY difficult!
Not bad for a beginner though.
i drove my dearest shepherd up the wall.
Buahahahha
*sorry

I think i'm suffering from brain damage these few days.
I keep forgetting things.
I buried my personal life somewhere, but thats a good thing for now.Otherwise i'll be hyper emotional now:)
Now i forgot my main topic for blogging today :/
But i do hope its due to lack of sleep.
shuacks.
I think i'm suffering from eye damage too.
I kept seeing green patches for a whole minute after walking facing the sun today.
I need shades, or my eye'll pop out soon.

.......
....
SEEE!
I'm being super difficult today.
Tee hee.
I'm having body malfunction.
My appetite dropped and for the rarest times i was really picky about what i ate.
So I can announce that i'm currently living on my favorite biscuit now only :/

But one thing i'm really happy. I'm back to photoshop!
Honest, skills are totally rusted.
But from this,
It becomes this!

Awesome aint it?
Not exactly lomo.
But still awesome.
I'm starting on people's photos reaaallly sooon.
SO those who love to abuse my hp cam...
MUAHAHAHAHAHA.
*insert most evil laughter*

2009-01-18T06:56:00.000-08:00

ATTENTION.
DEEPLY SADDENED BY YOU PEOPLE'S RESPONSE,
PUBLICITY STUNT WILL BE POSTPONED TILL FURTHER NOTICE.
SO REALLY!
PLEASE COME:(
THIS FREAK SHOW IS STILL ON.

roar*

I can safely conclude the only 'positive' thing that happened to me this week was dreaming about Esther storming into my workplace walking like an Ah lian with arms swinging like a gorilla, pouting her lips.

Been a roller coaster ride for me this week, with results and blah blah yadda yadda drone dribble.

I really tried to keep my emotions down but sometimes i just crack. Which in the end, makes me so ashamed of myself and want to keep from contact for days *so dang the phone's abilities.

Sorry.

But even determined hearts puncture.
Even the strongest feet waver and falter.
Even the fullest river runs dry.
But for you I'll march on.
Even as i walk through the valley of the shadow of death
I shall not fear.
For You comfort me.
Today I wanna pick myself up.
A fresh grown wonder.
I'll shut those emotions.
And march faithfully on for you alone.
For you alone.

My personal composed prayer.
Make me new.

2009-01-13T08:23:00.000-08:00

Serious consultation from people today.
Honestly, I can only think of Design only.
I hate a desk bound future.
Anyways, skipped work today. (DIE)
Okay, so it's not like your typical school where you can come and go as you please and not get into serious trouble.
yea, yea. I know, i'm probably gonna get scolded by my boss.
But heyyyy, like jacq said, it's either for my future or i'll be working there for the rest of my life!
And that's so not me to not follow my priorities, but its for my FUTURE. So just for today.

Still have to rush Portfolio.
Thanks to reformat, all my works were completely erased.
Gotta start from scratch all over again.

ATTENTION.
Publicity stunt on SATURDAY.
Ang Peng lin is going to wear flowery skirt and tank top.
Parading around Somerset MRT.
COME AND TAKE PICTUREEESSSSSSSS.
DO NOT REFUSE.
ONCE IN A LIFE TIME OFFER.
*thanks Dennis!

2009-01-12T08:33:00.000-08:00

My awesome God, I thank you:)
L1R5: 20
L1B4: 15

And my results for each subject!
I love you :)
English-b4
Literature in English-A2
Combined Humans-B4
Maths-B3
Science-A2
Chinese-C5

Heh. Though some of you guys are probably gonna laugh at me and wondering why would I post such lousy results, I'm not ashamed of it. I've done everything i could and shall knows that something's in store for me up ahead, all perfectly planned out. No point worrying, cause its all over.

Though i may be condemned at the moment, I know someone's with me and HE holds my future in his hands.

Though i don't know whether i'm happy or sad (i'm still thawing out), I think I'll just take a chill pill and probably give myself a/ many many treats!
I'm thinking of dying my hair entirely blond and colouring my fringe with either outrageous red or hot pink. Then going on with total wild hairstyle. Okay it's abit mad but i think that's really awesome:))))

Here's another weird thing. My primary school mates are gonna have a reunion this saturday. And we haven't been in touch for 5 complete YEARS! Mad or not? And how this guy actually remembered my house number is a total miracle. Sheesh, it's gonna be so awkward, since we all used to play CATCHING together and now we've all grown up. But ya know what? I bet they are all kapo about each other's O's results * provided that they even managed to stay in high school and all. Nuts.

2009-01-10T06:21:00.001-08:00

Just another 3 more days.
Results will be out.
Oddly, my panic/worry button has already been pushed:/
I usually get worried only on the day itself.
And suddenly, i'm starting to think i screwed up for ALL my papers.

Gee, I even had a bad nosebleed in the bathroom.
Lasted for 15 mins.
The blood was like a busted dam.
Gushing like some aunties rushing to grab nice freebies.
Heh.
Too much worry bottled up till one of my blood vessels actually burst?
Might be.

Been walking on tightrope.
unnecessarily over reacting to jokes and everything.
I apologise to everyone who got a taste of that. (especially the caregroup)
Even today.
Sorry.
Try as i might, I just wasn't myself.

It's true.
There's no point in worrying.
It just exaggerates the whole matter.
I can choose to shut it out by doing other stuff.
But how so when your parents are just trying to push you over the ledge
by hinting that you can't even make it to Poly at all?
The emphasis of the word IF.
The snort of unbelief when i said i wanted to go designing course.
Honestly, it really kills one's self esteem when these people called parents are supposed to be supportive?
*i must have seen too much drama shows. That or i'm too cynical.

Be what may, come what may.
For i know my future's in your hands.
For no matter what, i still must march on.

PS: sorry. Its just a night for tearing hearts. Ruffle my hair.

2009-01-08T05:31:00.000-08:00

I lost weight!!
Teehee.
People said I look skinner. [YAY!]

Harh harh.
So today wasn't the best day.
No biggie.

Yesterday was FUN.
sorta.
Gym with Candace.
we spent only about an hour in Bedok gym before heading to have Mac
*totally missing the point of going to gym yea?
HAHAHA. whatever. As long as i'm SKINNIER.

Headed down to downtown with caregroup to meet up with Li Ying and Yuping!!
Hoho.
Got tricked by Candace and gang along the way.
A 'li upset then [but was not angry for more than 5 min but just upset]
but it was really hilarious thinking about it now.
Never had i heard such a loud shriek of laughter erupting from Candace's mouth.
And oh yes. My phone has been recently and still is being loaded with multitudes of photos taken C.G. And the face that pops up the most number of times is still....

CANDACE LYE.
Her hobby is disturbing me.
Screams in terror*

2009-01-06T08:03:00.000-08:00

My parent's brutally crushed my holiday dream job: a sports facilitator.
D:
I wanna scream.

Anyways, here's another reason for screaming.
RESULTS WILL BE OUT ON 12 JAN.
It's official.
SCREAMMMMM!
Haha. Okay. So the results will be out.
No biggie *psychos self.

Oh God. There's a tingling in my heart now.
Haha.
But whatever the results, i've known that i've really given all i've got.
Everything.
But i just can't help but think the worst outta everything :/
So there.
I'm worrying all over again.
And my parents aren't helping either.
They keep saying the word IF i make it to poly.
D:

Evil.

Tomorrow i'm gonna go gym!
With Candace Lye.
Did i do something wrong?
HAHAHHAHA.
Joking !

Okay whatever, its like 2.30 am already? Gee, been sleeping awfully late these few days. Explains the drowsiness*

2009-01-01T05:22:00.000-08:00

What an awesome new year celebration :D *good way to start the year!
With the EAST family!!
Awesome.
Jacob's then East coast.
The games were awesome:)
The craziest was the water gun game.
I'm a good shooter
Esther and Shermaine will acknowledge this *grins
Soaked through and through personally done by me :D

SPARKLERS AT MAGIC HOUR!!! !
Fun, but i choked and coughed on the excessive smoke from all the sparklers.
So just imagine me laughing and coughing holding sparklers in the mist of all the smoke.
Laughs out loud*
Captain's ball after that !
But i didn't play till the morning like them. (scared of playing with the guys i guess)
Seven 11 and Mac were jam packed like crazy. So out of desperation we took the underpass and journeyed to the other seven 11 and had our cup noodles at the dark badminton court. *boy, cup noodles and strawberry yogurt drink as my first meal of the year. It was really tons of fun eating with Yushan, Melody, Mable, Fiona and Shermaine! Hahahha, i just love to make fun of bimbo Shermaine:D Teasing and tickling her is my forte! HAHAHHAHHAHA.
Spent time with Fiona.T all the way till dawn, talked about stuff, new revelations about her( she is kapo!) Reached home, zonked out from 9 to 4.

By the way, Florence say i should join choir! she says i got the voice! HAHAHHHA. okay i'm being very thick skinned but still awesome :D

NEW YEAR, NEW START.
2009, watch out!
I'm storming over with a wholesome new style:D

2008-12-27T07:36:00.000-08:00

GAGAGAGGAGGA.
It's the last Saturday of year 2008 (everyone go Awwww)
Heh.
Made a pact with Jolene just now, we're gonna compete to see who loses more weight!
Talking to her alone already made me feel super fat:(
HAHAHHA.
But i think i really need to.
All that Christmas cookies and chocolates?
I'm not through with them yet.
And i've been barely exercising this two months.
And shoving food frantically into my mouth more like.
TEEHEE.
Sometimes, Holidays dont always seem to be a good thing:)
More like high time for pigging out.
Hah, anyways, the past two months were pretty busy for me too!
hurhur, and i'm like nowhere near close to completing my to-do list after O's

Hmm, might as well do some reflections of this year then while i'm at it.
You're welcomed not to read it.
Heh.

Well.....

This year's been pretty hectic for me.

Band: honestly, i think it was a really really really awesome experience for me. And to think i really used to hate band ALOT! Thanks to everyone who had made it so, the band, the volunteers and especially the trombone section:D
It'll be something which i'll never ever forget. All the awesome 'li friends i have:D It's an experience which was totally worth all that sweat, heat, mud and tears of course. I've loved band camp too, people snoring*hint hint, the unglam things people do*don't think i didnt see! HAHAHHA. and most of all the hilarious times i had with the funny awesome band people:) I've gathered tons of value from this episode alone and all credit goes to you guys ! :D

Studies:I really had to study back two years worth of stuff to catch up (didnt study at all in sec 3)
Yeap, so it was kinda some tough ordeal for me. I remembered nearing the O's, starting june even, i started going abit mad, obsessive about studying? Till i think i withdrew abit from my friends? Even worse, i got very depressed when the dates drew nearer and started having morbid thoughts. Stayed up nights to squeeze even more, even when people talk, i sometimes pick out words that might have the slightest link to a subject.Crazy right? To elevate the horrible situation, I started comparing results with people, which very nearly drove me to ultimate self-destruction. If not for God and my shepherd and a few close ones, I might not be here after all. heh. So thank you :) Thank God for the East Grads too. Jiale and Royston too! For being such awesome study buddies! Jiale, you never failed to make me laugh at your silly antics at times. And Royston! Thanks for feeding me with so much food all the time! See lah, now ah pui(fatty) already*grins

Another thing was my personal spiritual growth. BREAKTHROUGH! I grew. I'm no longer that boulder stuck on the river bed, but now able to flow with the rest along, towards that wonderful Kingdom! For the people who knew me long, i think it was almost a complete turnaround. I used to be like a clam, never ever making a sound. But now? It's hard to shut me up even! hahahaha. And camp Heros! My first camp, was a complete 'eye' opener, a heart opener! Besides learning more about the disgusting habits my caregroup has, *muahahha I've really whoa, learnt so much, seen so much, experienced so much too! whew, its a camp never to forget:D

Friendships were built in church too, i've really come to know more and more people after opening my fat clam head, which cannot close after that:/
But not just church itself either! Friendships were built during those long hours at school. I missed everyone, the stupid things done there, the weird and the crazy. Though i've never come to love my class, i've come to learn how to see things from a different perspective a new light instead of one. I learnt not to be a sucker and only gulp down information given by another immediately.

And oh! Birth of a phone into my life. T700. But honestly, even till now, I hate the idea of having a phone. A handphone's just a nicer term for a digital dog leash:/ But ahhaha, people who used to try and contact me before my phone must be singing all over as they used to puke blood trying to figure out where i disappear to half of the time. And I walk on eggshells whenever i carry it out,check it every so often and keep it in a pouch with a recent lanyard (thanks cheryl! ) Ah poo, it's only easier to keep contacts :d

Flowers bloom, flowers fade. We all have to simply accept that. They say BFF, but honestly i think it's just crap. When friends enter different phrases of life, they drift away. Cause there's simply nothing more in common to talk about. BGR, whatever the things. Sometimes such situations make me feel like some toilet-paper friend, one who was just used for a single purpose and then flushed down, possibly never to be remembered of again. I mean, would you remeber about the piece of toilet paper just probably went down the bowl,say, during poo poo this morning? Obviously not, otherwise you'd be crying your eyes out over every single thing, half bitten sweet chocolate maybe!? hahaha. Let's face it, not even your dog's gonna be there for you for the rest of your life, it'll probably die of old age first. Even if you do become friends for life, you'd had to be either married to one another(that'll be many homos i guess) , or somehow end up living next to one another working in the same department? You'll never be as close as last time. I'm not trying to be the nasty queen here but that's reality check for you dude:/ Sure at times i grieve over a loss over a good friend due to lack of communication, even now. What doctor Seuss said was right, there are just things you have to get over with.

'Cry not because it's over. Smile, because it happened.'

Doctor Seuss

Well there! That's just about everything i wanna comment about this year! I've graduated, i've learnt alot, theory wise and social wise. School's starting on 2nd Jan and i'm not going to be woken up at 6 in the morning, groan and grumble and curse while i get prepared for school and finally plonk myself on the seats in the canteen and stare and point and one another saying how fat each other has become. No it'll probably never ever happen again in my entire life. Sad issn't it? I think i really wrote almost my heart out today in this very post. And it has really really kinda upset me :(
someone ruffle my hair.

The shroud
the little childish happiness
is taken off, together
with the old school uniform
Never will i be in that uniform again.
And who will remember
The little girl with her two pigtails
with her petticoats always too long
and her thousand naughty and silly ways?

The old school uniform
With the childish delights and giggles
is folded and locked up in the top drawer
Forever.

Shall i cry?
I am no longer a child
My eyes are so dry
It's not easy to cry

Yet i heard somebody weeping
Crying louder and louder-howling
i feel her tears-
She is the girl locked up in the top drawer.

Wong May

2008-12-24T21:26:00.000-08:00

Heh heh.
Merry Christmas to all out there:)

Sad to say, Christmas service didn't turn out the way i wanted it to be yesterday:/
But thanks for the encouragement guys, Angel and Siewling:)
Really wanna thank Tahir too! You, like Yi Lian, gave me lots of hope:)

Anyways, East dinner was awesome! :D
It's such a privilege to be having dinner together.
All the crap and stuff:)
The food was AWESOME.
Thank God Esther, Cheryl and i didnt stupidly go for food eating competition and have second helpings, otherwise we would have to roll out of Angel's house.
Thanks for the cookies East A peeps!
Gee, i can't wait to munch on them*grins
Did i detect some coffee in them?
Will still have them anyway :D
(wow, Yushan, didnt know you can bake! hahaha)

Christmas cardssss!
It was such a joy reading them.
Gosh, reading the cards make me realise something about myself.
I really had indeed been transformed.
Like Metamorphosis.
Caterpillar to butterfly.
Like Saul to Paul.
Where will my next step be?
Peng Lin to?
Hahaha.
I've found everything.
Fight on Fight on.
For this penguin can fly.
:)

2008-12-20T07:39:00.000-08:00

Edited on 22 dec*

CHRISTMAS. CHRISTMAS. CHRISTMAS. CHRISTMAS.
Gifts? turkey? Smoking ham? Carols?
Come on.
There's so much more to it.
Wanna know more?
Contact me!(my no has changed!)
24th dec.
Follow me.
And discover life to fullest. Purpose in life.
Discover yourself.
Experience the true meaning of Christmas.
Things ain't never gonna be the same again.

[to my friends:please come. I've been asking for years.]

JINGLE BELLS*

Somebody just pressed my panic button.
Christmas is only another 5 days away.
Presents are exchanged on the 24th .
And i haven't gotten down to the business of making cards.
AHHHHHH.

Oh well.(thickens skin for a bit)
Due to popular demand, i shall blog about what i want for Christmas.
not my two front teeth*
What i want for Christmas are:
A bicycle/a pair of skates.
Nikon SLR.
Shoes.
Big cool shades.
Clothes.
Bag*
Phone Lanyard (something that suits my personal taste)(taken)
Guitar.
Sketchbook (taken)
Crazy and outrageous outing with those who dare to do stunts such as asking for Chicken rice in KFC.
Hahahha. What i want are so expensive.
Something practical will do actually. I'm not entirely fussy as long you know i need/want it. (and NO Esther, you MAY not give me a coconut Bra. Hahahhaha)
And please do not give me any SOFT toys.
I can practically suffocate myself with all those that i have been given:)

But honestly, what i believe is the best present would be your presence! So do come down this Wednesday from 2 to 4 and see Christmas for yourself ! Also, you'll get to see Miss pengs dance to the groove to the awesome music! You'll think happy feet is nothing after seeing mine!

Ps: Sometimes you feel like adopting Dawn Tay 'cause she really cute. Other times you'd wanna puke blood and throw her into the Singapore river. HAHAHAHAHA.

2008-12-16T21:31:00.000-08:00

KONNICHIWA:]
I got admitted into Singapore sports school.
In the swim team now.
And Tao Li's my hostel room mate!
WHEEEE!

JOKING !

Back from camp Heros lah deh !
Awesome.
Reappeared on the face of earth after 17.5 hours of sleep.
Tuesday the 16th did not appear on my calender.
Wasn't in Singapore then.
But in LALA land :D
Indeed a hero after camp:p
One of them reasons was that i've never slept so long before.
:D

But before i go into the camp itself.
I shall blog about the 15th
Which was my second hair dye attempt!
With Candace Lye. AGAIN. Aye,been seeing her for 7 days already, wah, even shared room with her,shared food, shared stories, shared bed, shared a lot more disgusting things with her. HAHAHHA. EWW.
Anyway, the both of us dyed hair two times in two days.
Call us desperate and crazy but honestly we were just really wanted to get that teeny bit of colour on our heads:d
Success anyway:D
The process over at her house was hilarious and super dumb. We watched the red dog cartoon all the way:D
For now, i feel like i look like a red monkey.

And the very next day was CAMP!
At Singapore sports school.
My first and the very awesome awesome camp.
I really didn't know what to expect.
But i really did receive much from God.
God moved big time in me.
This camp has really been an eye and heart opener.
No wonder they say camp was so much more awesome then anything else.
God spoke to me distinctively through teachings and people in camp like Esther, Candace and Jacq.
Our caregroup had the honor of sharing Dorm and the days with the delegates from Kuching, Angie and Yvonne. They are really great women of Christ and have taught me much too:)

Day1 of camp:
Games to kick start everything. Candace and Carinna were really awesome in the move to the groove game:) Praise and Worship was really great cause East got to sit directly in front of stage throughout the camp :) Teachings were really awesome too. Pastor shirly was really really AWESOME and inspiring! wished i could speak to her and get her autograph. SSS beds were really GOOD! spacious and bouncy. They even have a toilet for each room with awesome water heaters! Heh. Zonked near 3 in the morning. But i think i would have slept later if not for my caregroup, who seemed to be old people! ROFL.

Day 2 of the camp:
More teachings and praise and worship!
And MINILUTION!
LOL. We were supposed to dress up as kids during this event and while the rest of the caregroup looked like adorable babies, i looked like some extreme retard! Whoa, i think my market value seriously dropped, faster than how stock market prices crashed.
Torchie from Brisbane was a great blessing, his prophecy really moved many in our church. I think he's really cool. And we had shpeherd's appreciation night too! Well, while many shpeherds and sheeps cried, i just stood down there like some loser trying to squeeze a few pathetic drops of seawater out. (oh oh, why didn't i have an onion then?) Followed by a heart to heart talk with my beloved shepherd:)

Day 3: The craziest night ever. We had concert, we had all night sports games instead of majong:D Captain balled to God knows what time. Had a a few private chats too. God really spoke to me through jacq at the pool, where we were happily dipping our feet away and splashing about. Priorities, i really do have a lot to learn in this area. Ambitions, i really must have the faith to dream big. Talk is cheap, but actions are deep.
Candace and I weren't planing to sleep that night but in the end, we KO-ed at 7 plus in the morning on the same bed without showering. Now how smelly is that?!?! But the crazy woman should really thank God that i didnt toss and turn, fling my arm, kick, or drool(which i had been observed by some)

Yeap, more or less i'm glad that my camp objectives are met, with post camp objectives to complete:)
And as i'm not some photo-gen kid, lets not post any pics. I look super ugly :D

2008-12-10T09:42:00.000-08:00

CHRISTMAS. CHRISTMAS. CHRISTMAS. CHRISTMAS.
Gifts? turkey? Smoking ham? Carols?
Come on.
There's so much more to it.
Wanna know more?
Contact me!
24th dec.
Follow me.
And discover life to fullest. Purpose in life.
Discover yourself.
Experience the true meaning of Christmas.
Things ain't never gonna be the same again.

[to my friends:please come. I've been asking for years.]

2008-12-09T07:01:00.000-08:00

I did it.
I asked God to gimme a sign whether or not should i stay, God immediately answered my prayer and i am confirmed.
I quit my agent job [no more agent Ang]
But i'm happy.
I won't have to worry about being separated from God[for now]
But yet i'm sad as i was really interested in the job scope.
But it's okay anyway.
So how now brown cow?
Let's take a step at a time.
:)
Moo.

Here's another question that popped into my head:
Who the heck in the world found milk? I mean, who was the person who decided: Hmmm, i'll drink whatever that comes out of that thing under the cow.
HAHHAHAHAHA.

2008-12-08T08:36:00.000-08:00

Ahhh.
It's 1 in the morning and i can't go to sleep.
Hair still ain't dry after 4 ,5 hours?! Gosh, i really do have a lion head.
And i'm too lazy to take out the hair dryer.
There's so many things clogging up my mind right now.
And that darn barking dog isn't helping things either.
I swear I'll silence it*grrr.
Geee.
Today's the only day of the week which i'm gonna have to myself.
December's never been such a busy year before.
I think i might be busier than the president.
heh.
Thing is, there are some things which i have to let go.
Hmmm.
Lose-lose situation?
Yes.
I know what i should do but i'm still in that freaking dilemma.
Seems that i've just stepped on a mine.
I so frigging can't laugh right now.
I want this year to really end well.
But it seems bleak.
Crap.

Torn between two worlds.
There's no cohesion.
It is uncompromisable.
I'm left in disarray.
I'm at the biggest fork road of my life so far.
The decisions are dangerous.
The consequences ugly.
But yet i must not falter.
My heart must not dwindle in faith.
Have mercy instead of my blame.
I have never known to fear so much.
It wasn't meant to spiral down like this.
I was just getting prepared.
Alas, i brought this upon myself.
I must carry the cost alone.

2008-12-07T21:01:00.000-08:00

4 more days to Heros camp.
Awesome.
13 to 16th all in Sports school
i feel cool:)
I so wanna experience more more more.
Games master in the house.

LALALALALALALA
I wanna go night cycling.
Anyone interested?
I wanna go food hunting at night:)
But that would depend whether i have time or not.
So many things, so little time:)
awesome awesome.

Ps: peng peng doesn't like it when people don't reply her:(
She feels so lonely and insignificant. HAHAHAHAHHA *roll eyes
But honestly.

Though life may not be a bed of roses now but i shall seek shelter in your name and let you do the rest. And a big sincere sorry to those whom i've been giving unhealthy attitudes.

2008-12-06T18:55:00.000-08:00

Service yesterday made a very big impact on my life.
Many thanks to Dennis and Daniel for the teaching.
It never occurred to me that sometimes, we are trapped in by the nasty things our dearest do/say to us.
For me,One of it was my insecurity.
Owner of the work?
My parents.
Since young, i was really weak in maths. Time and time over again many people coached me but i never really got the hang of it. And during one of the times, my dad snapped and called me something which i shall never ever forget: a coconut head. Sounds funny to you guys but it was really hurtful to be called something that's complete hollow with only abit of gray water inside? He would even rap his knuckles against my head and wonder out loud why he gave birth to such a dumb kid.
At the end of the service, i was really chui-ed and never felt so raw by the realisation.
Sure there are even more to say but let's not go into it.

In fact, i was so affected that i had a nightmare about my caregroup mates hating and condemning me last night. It was really awful and scary.

God may be gracious and wipes away our past to give us a new start. God sees us as who we can become, not who we had been. But what if sometimes, we just aren't able to wipe our own past away?

It's so hard to forgive myself. I always seem to screw up things.
Sometimes, it can be tiring hiding behind that porcelain mask, wearing that plastic smile. Holding that damn dam.
Bah. Just ignore me, it must be some 'emo' moment.
It'll pass.
It must.

Heh, i just wasted 10 mintues of your time to read this dumb post. And you can't have it back.

I'm sorry.

2008-12-05T06:01:00.000-08:00

Split me into fours.
It's all so busy now.
But just as awesome.
I landed with a job.
That deals with property. [psst.call me agent Ang:]
Ah well, initially i wanted to get a job that has LOTS of Fun.
Like a skater coach which i applied for but didn't know what was the result 'cause i couldn't be contacted then.
Or being a fuzzy mascot which i was too lazy to apply for.
Or even working at the arcade which gives me FREE credits to play with[maybe i should hop there...]
meh:/
It's not that bad come to think of it, just that i was hoping we'd get to do some awesome stuff like parachuting from the office one day? [okay that's really nuts.]

Anyway.
Feeling super duper guilty for not being able to attend ROD and see the awesome trombonists tomorrow.And some of the stupid little monkeys scattered in the other sections:)
I love trombonists multitudes.
I miss outdoor. Kicking all that crappy mud and seeing Grace fight with Mr G.
Laughing at every single thing that we can find.
Making stupid comments with trombonists.
I promise to see ya guys real soon though when i have the time:}
And Jon, you're gonna be dead right about me not being there tomorrow.
It's not gonna be as fun as it's supposed to be*grins

8 more days to Heros camp!
Omg omg omg omg omg omg.
awesome awesome awesome awesome.
Experience experience experience experience.
I love my caregroup!

2008-12-04T08:47:00.000-08:00

Hey guys, ever thought of what you wanna be when you grow up and all?
Like being some lawyer, entrepreneur or something big.
I wanted to be an astronaut.

But in the end.
I guess i don't want it.
When i grow up...
I want to be

happy.
I'm sick of running after worldly things.

I'm so pissed and angry at myself for being so freaking difficult to my leaders at times.

2008-12-02T08:12:00.000-08:00

HAHAHAHHAHAHA.
Awesome awesome.
Birth of a phone into my life.
T700!
Yea yea, people who know me would definitely go 'PHEW', cause trying to contact me is like trying to find a needle that has long itchy legs who'd run from hay sack to hay sack.
Bah.
The problem now is whether i would remember it's presence:/
Heh heh. It's just that the needle's legs became a 'li shorter.
She still likes MIA.
:}

2008-12-01T20:17:00.000-08:00

Game master For HEROS camp!
Call me awesome:}

WHEEE.What the dictionary didn't put...
Crazy= Dawn Tay. [monica mango]
HAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHA.

2008-11-29T20:21:00.000-08:00

'When you're an old man,
you don't regret the stuff that you did...
you regret the stuff you didn't.'

'Runaways'
marvel

2008-11-28T05:25:00.001-08:00

God.
I feel like a dweeb.
I never got to save up for camp.
Actually, i did.
But i spent it on Prom.
augh. i just get so bleeding angry at myself thinking about it.
May God and the rest forgive me.
Hero's camp.
awesome.

Anyway.
Things are going kinda awesome lately.
And i found my long lost 'best friend'
Dawn Tay * crazy high lunatic laughter
Crazy, siao, cukoo.
And i'm the complete opposite.(Pengs you're sucha bloody liar)

And finally, i guess i should start to settle down now:)
So much for this year.
Guitar!Guitar!

I declare that i feel like crap now.
I have a jabbing headache.
Wake up to baby blue and not gloom.

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2008-11-26T07:07:00.000-08:00

God rebuked me today during QT in the morning in the park. And it was something that really made me very shameful the whole entire day.

Aren't there times when we just unconsciously seem to judge people the moment we see them? From how their dressing to that particular movement of their toes which irks you though they have done no harm to you in the first place? And it makes me really shameful of whatever i do,be it a good or bad comment. Times when i try to invite my schoolmates to service, i'd take a look at them and then without even trying, i'd already confirmed a no for some of them. Or even the times when i followed the crowd of the school and decide for some of my fellow humans that they don't deserve to receive God? Come on, i may be just that little more respected or popular, but it doesn't mean that i can be a total asshole and go off deciding who deserves to know God or not.

As children of God, we should always be ever ready to give our support to those who needs it the most. And coincidentally, the people bullied in school etc etc are the people turn out to the people who needs love the most. Sadly, i'm just that arrogant kid who denies them that chance. Like hello? If God had such similar attitude(choi), i definitely wouldn't have been chosen to be reconciled with the Christ. Are we not supposed to love our neighbours as ourselves? Sometimes, i can even disgust myself, with such a repulsive attitude.

:(
Aye. Best not say more.

Anyway, in response to Esther's blog post:
A really big thank you for everything you've done. I don't know how to express it either.Aye, it must be really saddening to see your own sheep to be unable to do something that's so fundamental. Talk about being functionally retarded...

You are really someone who has really made a gigantic impact in my life, in many aspects. Not just spiritually but as will hm..many many! LoL. Yea, it's really alot. And a really big sorry for the times i really made you puke blood in secret whenever i disobey you or rebel against you. But you never did ever directly scold me or anything, you just swallowed your blood back in (eww,sounds gross) and corrected me without trying to sound too anrgy or something. And it's something that i am really grateful for. Honestly, i've known the great lengths you've always gone for us and it really touches me.

And okay, as much as i'm not used to say this but....sometimes, i just think my shepherd can be awesome and awfully cute at times:)
But just this once:p !

And also to my dearest slanted Vertikal bag. (how ironic)
Thanks for being such an awesome red bag.
You've been with me through the most awesome journey so far.
We've been through alot. The tsunamis in life.
Always on my back, providing more comfort than what a usual haversack would.
But alas, we have to part. [coz your zipper broke today:( ]
But just know this.
I love you alot:)
Nostalgia.

2008-11-24T06:04:00.000-08:00

Here's how we feel about our own problems at times. We're small and them voluminous. How suffocating. Sometimes we feel that there's no way out and sometimes even others see us too ridiculously small to overcome them. Admit it, there are times when i myself cover my eyes and keep denying fruitlessly that i'm fine when the problem is just right in my face.

Pastor Jasmine once said:
Tough environment beefs us up in many aspects.

How true.

Here's one example: I was born into a family of different religions. But no matter how different our beliefs may be, my parents never approved of my relationship with the Christ. Especially my mom. To the extent that she would shout at me to stop treating the house like some damn hotel when i told her i need to go out for caregroup or whatever during the week. Sure i got pissed in the beginning and often it ends up with my parents and i having a big (sometimes violent) 'ou-la-la' quarrel followed by a cold war for weeks on end. There were periods of time where i stop and ponder: would it have been better if i had decided [put it crudely] to ditch God and restore that bit of peace? How possible to have a miracle? cannot one lah.(unless someone jumped into the tiger pit)

Thankfully, through constant prayer and a whoop ton of encouragements did i manage to cling on and survive till this day.Miracle. (sadly, someone DID jump into the tiger pit). My relationship with God grew even deeper during such times. I had better control of my temper and i was more tolerant too. Though my parents still dont really approve at times, the fights have been occurring lesser and alot more less violent. Definitely less drama too.

Or another one:My friends avoid the saturday outings that i offer. Everytime i ask, they would know what's coming and they tend to..well...answer that question abit too quickly. Those who are more blunt would give me that painful look and go 'Hahhhh...'. Honestly,it really does hurt abit and gets me down for awhile. Gave up for a period of time myself so as to avoid the painful rejections.

Aye. There hasn't been much progress in this area at the moment yet but i'm still hoping that more of my friends would really at least once try and come for at least one service: / Yi Lian's one of my first miracles. (thanks dude.)

Out of His grace, he shall reveal his presence.
Lesser of me and the world, more of you.
My simple prayer for now.

2008-11-21T06:12:00.001-08:00

Gahhhhhhh
I regretted not going out with nissa and weird gang today
REGRET.
Omg.
it would have been so awesome.
I would have laughed like some..
nuttie.

Anyways, i had my own bit of fun.
You know there's TV mobile on the buses right?
yea. Most of the time they are just curses.
well yea.
And they had to show a rerun of 'first class'.
Darn.
So i laughed at one part and deciding that i was being a complete twit, decided to cover my mouth with my jacket.
And at this time, the old lady sitting beside me thought i was crying and offered me a freaking tissue! tissue! with an 'understanding' smile!
Jeez. But it was awesome funny anyway.

I wanna earn big bucks like Shakeela :9
But with a more exciting job.

2008-11-20T08:02:00.000-08:00

Urging Question: Lions roam the land right? Now, how 'bout imagining Chihuahuas dominating a part of the grasslands in the past?

Sometimes, i often wonder where do i come up with such stupid theories.

:l

please respond either via blogger or messenger. laughs out loud*

2008-11-18T06:31:00.000-08:00

Candace Lye.

i love candace lye.
i love candace lye.
i love candace lye.

why?
Coz she's ms Lye.
Missy Lye.
Yay.
She'll melt in the sun because she is too sweet.
Her funny actions make me go ROFLMAO all the time.
Her screams pierces my heart like how a spear pierces a.....banana!
I love candace lye so much that i made a song for her!

*sing along to the tune of 'she'll be going round the mountain when she comes
candace lye lye candace candace lye~
candace'so sweet oh i love her~
Missy lye makes my rainbow go round round
makes my rainbow go round
nah nah nah nah nah !

'happy' girls!

2008-11-17T17:15:00.000-08:00

Blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah
blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah
blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah

It's so boring after O's. I can't believe that it ended only a week ago.Felt like ages. And i still feel like mugging like crazy. I miss school:/ stupid ,stupid me.
Maybe i'll visit T'bones then.

I feel fat :( There's totally nothing to do on this little island [ minus the fact that nobody are interested in what i wanna do]. I feel like running amok in Singapore on a bike. I feel like trying out the craziest things or playing pranks.
But recently i've lost the mood and feeling slightly in the pits. ah shoot.

Searching for jobs aren't very fruitful either. Sure there are jobs lying around, but i want FUN ones. Can't expect me to work in some dumb office and sit there and type all day. I wanna work in 'skate with me' or something. But i need to be 18. crap. Maybe i'll just gym out till the end of the month first. bleh, boring.

RRRRRRRWWWWWWWWWAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRR.
I'm alone at home :/
Wish i could find that 'li idiot but i just don't know exactly where the TK greeny lives.
Hmmmm.

P.s: i like today's morning hair. I look like some anime hero :D